I have a lot of projects I'd love to do.Often I have to wait for a green light to do them. I have to wait for someone to say 'Go' before I can do anything but dream. Those projects make up very little of what I want to do, they are only a few. Most of the projects I'd love to do are of my own passion. My own thoughts. My own ideas. It's like I'm waiting for myself to say 'Go'.
I hate that.
I hate that I have to tell myself to go do something.
I have the gear. I have way more gear than I did before, stuff I always wanted to have.
I have the abilities. Heck I have more than I used to.
I have the time.
I have everything I need to do it, but I'm not. Why?
I hate this.
I need to make something or I will go crazy.
I don't care what people think of what I make, yet I don't make it.
I like making stuff, yet I consistently talk myself out of making something.
I don't get it.
It's time to go, I just hope this time I'll listen to myself.